Disappointing days are disappointing.

[amelialourdes]

I had a long week. It's just been a really long week and I hadn't been feeling at my best. I've written that this week and I was very much looking forward to seeing Evita in Orange County. Me and my friend Lisa drove down, at a rushed lunch (SO MANY PEOPLE AT THE MALL AND WE FORGOT) and went to the theater where I saw... Josh Young will not be performing the role of Che.

You have to understand that this happened before. I went to the Pantages on closing night, the last performance and he wasn't there either. It was his understudy. And I understand, that's what understudies are there for. I've seen enough shows to just deal with it and move on with my life. I was upset but it was fine. It happens. But, I was determined to see him perform again. His voice just moves me. Hearing those songs from him just elevates the show for me. So I wanted to see him and I bought tickets for today's matinee in Orange County. He performed the last matinee in Los Angeles so my logic was that he would perform during a matinee performance.

So when we got to the theater today and I didn't see his name on the board, I was disappointed. I told myself not to be. I told myself to just enjoy the show from my second row seats because I do love the show. The show was about to begin and the announcer said that the roles of Eva and Che would be played by their understudies. I knew that the show must go on and I'd have to accept it.

I lasted about three songs before I high-tailed it out of there.

I kept feeling my disappointment creeping up on me. It was soul crushing. When I watch musical theater, my soul is involved. I'm so emotionally connected that I can't help but get involved. Josh Young's Che changes me and like I said, it makes the show for me. It was hard to listen or pay attention to anything when all I could think about was how I had such a long, tiring week and the one thing I was looking forward to turned into a moment of crippling disappointment. I couldn't concentrate and I had to leave.

I just wanted to know if I had said something, is there an opportunity to change my tickets for another night? You can do that on Broadway. If the performer's name is above the marquee (starring in the show) you can request to change your tickets for another night. I wasn't sure if you could do that for a touring company but it couldn't hurt to ask. Guest services couldn't help. I needed to be a season subscriber to change my tickets. I went to the box office to ask if there was any way to get a guaranteed performer's schedule so I could maybe come back and try to see him again. I know that it's impossible but I wanted to hear something.

I get to the box office, tried to explain my situation and BOOM. I start crying and doing a little sobbing and I felt awful for the girl at the box office who had to deal with me. She felt so bad for me and I felt so guilty for crying and for being upset about this in the first place. These things absolutely happen and usually I'm more than ready to accept them. But, I just couldn't. I couldn't. Not today and not this week.

They were awfully nice about it. They put my name down and hopefully I can try to get another ticket before the show leaves. I'm going to try my luck again next weekend. I'm just going to hope for the best. That's all I can do, right? Hope? I just hope it results in what I've been looking forward to.

Comments

[bigboobedcanuck.livejournal.com]

I still can't believe this. SO DISAPPOINTING. To have it happen twice is not cool. NOT COOL, JOSH. GO TO FUCKING WORK. We all know this happens, but his attendance record is seriously spotty and it's unprofessional.

Anyway. Crossing all my limbs for next weekend!

[ghettogreta.livejournal.com]

I had no idea you could change your tickets if that happened. Huh, good to know. Not as if I wouldn't just have to suck it up and deal, since I live 2 1/2 hours away, I can't just head right back. ANYWAY. Ugh, I can't imagine how much that sucked for you. I remember going to see shows and praying the people I wanted to see would be in, because the only reason I bought the ticket in the first place was to see them. I know I'd have reacted the same way, felt this huge disappointment, and I'm not even half as invested as you are. I have my fingers crossed for you for next weekend.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I know, dude. I'm right there with you. Twice just makes me wonder how many times he's been absent on tour in general. So incredibly spotty which I definitely knew but having second row seats was so disappointing. Like if we heard Aaron would be going on for Ramin both Thursday AND Friday. I would not even be able to even. Nope.

Thank you, bb! Appreciate it. You'll know ASAP if something goes awry.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I know for the bigger Broadway productions, sometimes when they KNOW the leads are going to pick a date where they'll be out, they're given a schedule. So let's say if Patti Lupone knew she'd be out on Thursdays and you wanted to see her, you could call the theater and change your date if her name is above the marquee -- and it would be. Something like that but I totally understand. I could never do it if I was going to New York since I was on a fixed schedule.

Yeah, dude. It sucked. And I'm usually the same way. When I went to New York I just prayed and needed all the good luck and hoped everyone I wanted to see would be there. Thankfully, they were. I know you can never count on it but especially in a touring production when the leads are so heavily advertised and I like them so much, I don't know. I totally lost my mind. So, I hope it works out next weekend and thank you! I'll take the crossed fingers. <3