Christmas future.

[amelialourdes]

I haven't finished my Christmas shopping yet. My list isn't extensive but it's enough. I still need something for my dad, grandma, both boy baby cousins... still waiting on my other cousin's Christmas gift that should be coming in the mail any day now. I know presents shouldn't be the most important thing at Christmas. But, presents are important to me because making them happy is important to me. I love seeing how excited the kids get at Christmas. I love that my parents think I think enough of them to get them gifts. And I love thinking about what to get them. I always try to think of something that they absolutely want. It doesn't have to be something you need but why don't you get something you want? I do that enough for myself.

My mother always says she doesn't know what to get me for Christmas or my birthday. And sometimes that feels bad. She's known me for 28 years and she doesn't know what to get me? I'm so easy to buy presents for. Blu-rays, theater tickets, etc. I feel like I'm so easy and it's not the present. It's the thought that counts but she doesn't think about me. Do you know how much jewelry she gets me? I don't wear any jewelry. Only sometimes. And she insists on these gaudy rings. When do I ever wear rings like those? Ever?

I know. I'm awful. Seriously, awful. It is the thought that counts and she just wanted to get me something. And then I hurt her feelings when I don't want it or wear it. Again, I know how ungrateful that makes me sound and I feel awful for it. But, that's parents, right? They don't always get it right and as her child, I'm not getting it right. She gives me so much more during the year that a wrong gift every holiday or special occasion doesn't really matters. It matters to me that she's here and she does more for me than anyone in my life will ever do for me.

Comments

[buzziecat.livejournal.com]

Such a lovely photo. :) You both look very happy.
You and your mom sound like you care about each other a lot and want to please each other. ♥

Just as you told us, would you tell your mom what you'd like for a gift - theater tickers for (whichever play), music? I can imagine her being so happy when she sees you're thrilled with what she got for you.
buzzie

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I was 4 and I was a flower girl at my cousin's wedding.

We sure do. I adore my mother. Just a random complaint. And I've definitely told her. I remember she surprised me with a Wii a few years ago. She was on the right track then. I've even offered her a list but don't know why she doesn't want to take it. Thank you, though! She's pretty epic when it comes to birthdays so I have that to look forward to in February.