icon but i've got a question!

[amelialourdes]

Since we're all fandom happy around here, I've got a fandomy question! For those fic junkies out there, what fics have made you cry? I'm a total lush so I cry a lot but there are a couple of stories that come to mind that I can't even read anymore because I know I'll end up sobbing. Okay, so maybe stories that make you sob or cry. Any fanfic that does that to you? Share them!

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[bigboobedcanuck.livejournal.com]

Hmm. I'm sure many have, such I'm a huge sap. Right now I'm drawing a complete blank. I need some caffeine.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I have a whole coffee here I've barely touched. I'll share. :D

I'm curious to know what's gotten to you, bb! One in QaF that's sticking out is Randall's "Seven Stages." It's got their entire lives together but from beginning to end and the end kills me. Oh, and Reaper Boy. Totally. Can't read them anymore.

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

REAPER BOY OMG

http://nanowrenlet.livejournal.com/

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Ha! I said the same thing! Omg. I think I'm totally fine throughout the entire story, everything's going well, and then the end? BOOM. Sobbing. :((

[shadownyc.livejournal.com]

"The Long Way" by Bigboobedcanuck and Ragingpixie is one of the few fics that truly brought me to "tissue required" tears. Absolutely brilliant!

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

YES, OMG. WE'RE JUST TALKING ABOUT THAT.

They set the mood and the tone so perfectly for it but it feels like I'm mourning and grieving with the characters. It's just so, so good!

[mech-bull.livejournal.com]

I've teared up here and there at plenty of fic, but I don't think I've ever actually cried reading any.

I cry all the time writing fic, though. I think it's because I'm trying to get into the characters' heads and thus end up even more emotionally invested/connected to them.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I cry all the time writing fic, though.

Maybe this transfers to your readers too because a lot of the time I feel viscerally connected to your writing that it affects me. I mean, causes me to physically or verbally react (hard to read at work but I do it anyway). I think that that emotion that you have, writing through them, transfers really well.

[cindergal.livejournal.com]

Does my own count? I sobbed during the writing of Hereafter, LOL!

Found and Raise Up Heart also made me cry.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Lol! It absolutely counts! There's a lot involved for an author and I think that it totally counts when you're affected by what you're writing.

Ugh, second that! Tears and sobs and all.

[suzvoy.livejournal.com]

Another QAF fic that always makes me teary-eyed is Lachrymose:

http://qaf-fic.com/atp/viewstory.php?sid=1634

In other fandoms, this SPN fic totally made me cry - I think because I relate so much to Dean in this, having an addict sibling and being so unsure all the time. Ugh, it kills me but beautifully.

http://archiveofourown.org/works/62115?view_adult=true

And the ending of this Clex fic just KILLS ME:

http://smallville.slashdom.net/archive/8/immortality.html

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Ooh! Need to read that one over and prepare the tissues, I'm sure.

That's another reason to cry -- fic you can relate to. :((

And gonna read that too. Thanks for the recs of sadness!

[broadlicnic.livejournal.com]

I cried writing Vampire Reid due to massive exhaustion, and writing my post-train fic because I wrote it pre-train and thought it was going to be better than it actually was.

As for crying at fic, I don't think I have at any in the LuRe fandom. I did tear up at one Doctor Who/Torchwood fic from years ago, because when Jack was FINALLY about to die, the Doctor picked him up and took him to see Nine and Rose before he first met them. This was written before Ten met Rose (pre-Nine) before his regeneration. I cried at one DAAS fic, one Merlin fic, and one The OC fic, which was weird because I'm not even in the fandom. But I can't for the life of me remember what they were.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

There's always something in one of them that just hits that cry button!

[rinmonsterer.livejournal.com]

IF YOU NEEDED ME, OBVS. God, I cried like a baby, A BABY.

And also this autistic!justin fic I'm not allowed to mention because everyone says it's dirtybadwrong :x I don't care, it's my fave that I read whenever I need emotional catharsis because it delivers in spades. I find it utterly adorable, empathic, fascinating and so sad omg poor princess Justin :(

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

People like what they like, bb! I don't think that I could ever read it but it's been a favorite of a lot of people around. Who wrote that anyway? I cried like a baby when Justin deteriorated because he was abducted by aliens. So fucking heartbreaking. I don't even know. :|

[brokeaholic.livejournal.com]

i try not to read fics that make me cry, but I read a story (can't remember who wrote it) where Brian is drugged or really drunk & cheats on Justin with some guy. The guy actually commits suicide in Brian's office. I definitely cried over this fic.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Omg! That's extreme. How does Brian cheat on Justin? I figure the only way that Brian could ever really cheat is emotionally. It certainly wouldn't be a physical thing.

[turnyourankle.livejournal.com]

in qaf i think only reaper boy. or oh, i think also boys of melody. maybe alien? it upset me a lot, at least, i'm not sure if i cried.

i'm not sure about other fandoms! i've avoided death/ghost fics ever since then (and yet i've written them...hahah). there was one stargate atlantis fic that made me cry though (and i'm not even in that fandom) haha.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Omg, Reaper Boy. Which one was Boys of Melody? I cried like a bb during alien!Justin. I didn't think that I would but the way that she wrote him deteriorating and being aware of it and seeing it from Brian's perspective is just soul crushing, ugh.

Lol! And yet you've written them. Maybe your intent is to make other people cry? Haha.

Your icon -- I saw Dr. Drew when I went to Kimmel. He was turning into the parking lot. Weird and random.

Sobbing Over FanFic

[fansee.livejournal.com]

I can't remember ever crying over fanfic. That's more a result of avoiding any fic that gives me the least hint it will make me sad - that's not what I want in a fic at all, at all.

I definitely never read death!fics. FanSee

P.S. I did tear up at the end of Teacher - forget who wrote it - but only because the ending was so perfect.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

That's a good call! Sometimes I didn't know that they were death!fics. I just clicked and clicked when stories were new since I read just about everything. I regret some of those choices.

Was that teacher!fic by brosen and sparkledark?

Tear-Adverse

[fansee.livejournal.com]

So if I'm so averse to crying, why did I add this post to my Memories? *ponders*

Re: Tear-Adverse

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Lol! Good fic recs? I'm using it for that or if I need a good cry one day.

[lucie-inthesky.livejournal.com]

Here's a new one that's not yet been suggested:

REAPER BOY

Jesus H Christopher that one was rough. So good, but omg from the first chapter it was like... :(( :(( :((

There was another QAF one and the title is escaping me... I think it was by sweetestdrain (I think that's her name? The one who wrote the unbelievably awesome Hustler!Justin?) This one killed Justin, and Brian ends up with Ethan and vomits :| :| :| It was gloriously sad cause EVERYONE was fucked over in that fic. If you remember this one or find it in your search, let me know what it's called! I kinda want to read that again.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

We've talked about Reaper Boy weeping above!

That story WRECKS ME from beginning to end. You think everything might be okay, there may be some kind of 'brought back to life' scenario but NOPE. I guess I torture myself since it brings my two favorite shows together and you think you're gonna make it without a tear but ... it just doesn't happen. :|

OMG. I REMEMBER THIS.

I think mojokitten wrote the other death!fic I'm thinking about or someone did maybe you remember it. It was Justin leaving voice messages to Brian throughout the day and Brian wasn't picking up his phone. All the messages were in italics and every message was sort of a time stamp on Justin's last day until the last one where he's like "waiting for you to pick me up" or something and he died right after that.

... why are they always killing Justin, lol.

I'll try to think of the one where Brian fucks Ethan. I swear I thought it was mojokitten but must be somewhere else.

[mmmorpheusq.livejournal.com]

I never, never, never read DeathFics, except I did read REAPER BOY because I loved DEAD LIKE ME. And I re-read REAPER BOY about twice a year now, because it's just so perfectly written. Besides, I'm positive that, by now, I can handle it. Ha! Each time, I cry myself silly.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I loved Dead Like Me too! Still blame Greenblatt for not renewing that awesome show. You think you can handle it? lol. I always say that and by the middle I'm like, "Just take me out of my misery."

[highd.livejournal.com]

Plum's Beyond The Yellow Brick Road story leaves me so emotionally drained sometimes, it's silly. I have cried buckets over that story.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Definitely a lot in there! Is that story still going?

[natkinnat.livejournal.com]

"Constant" by Trisky.

There was no warning that it's a death fic. And it's not obvious until the last page. (it's only 14 pages long)
It's so beautifully written. I've read over 300 fics already (I've just counted all the saved read fics), and there haven't been anything more beautifully written so far in my way.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I remember her writing was really great! I think I've only read the Color series. It was a little flowery for my taste (if I remember correctly) but flowed really well.

[on-the-ground.livejournal.com]

I tried to remember but I just couldn't.. :(

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Aww. Hard to think about, bb.

[vlredreign.livejournal.com]

Reaper Boy, The Long Way and Dead Lesbiansverse. omg....

I just read one from the Lambliff Big Bang that BROKE MY ASS. And another that wasn't part of the fest, and even tho it ended well, it was just...it hurt, SO BAD.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Completely agree! Is dead lesbian verse London's stuff or just dead!Lesbians in general?

Difficult to read when it breaks you!

[court1429.livejournal.com]

I'm too chicken to read Reaper Boy. ;)

I'm a huge sap, so tearing up a little happens all the time. I don't necessarily count those. But two that I went through entire boxes of tissues while reading and that I will never read again are Randall's "Seven Stages" and Rhi's? "Apollo's End" (don't remember who wrote that).

The final chapter of Miss Miko's epic "Fantasy Season." The saving grace of this one and "Seven Stages" is that they've been together forever and Brian's 80 or so, if I remember right.

_kiden had one that was just a little one shot, maybe just a thousand words or so, where Brian's cancer returned. Michael came over to say goodbye, Brian died that night or early the next morning, and Justin lies there with him wishing for just ten more minutes. holy shit, I'm teary just typing the description. christ.

I hate death!fic, and I don't really seek it out, but sometimes you just need a good weep.

Oh, and one that didn't make me cry, but that bothered me so much, made me feel actually sick, was also one of Randall's - the one Brian/Adrian-Adrian/Brian. omfg. I can't hardly even think about that one. I'd probably read a death fic over a fic where they split up and don't get back together. I just can't do those at all.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Aww! But Reaper Boy is such a fandom classic. It needs to be done. It's such a great fic ... maybe skip the end and read the rest? lol.

I can never read Seven Stages. That's the one that absolutely wrecks me! Every part of it is great and then it hits the last part and there I go cry for several hours. :|

I think I made an attempt to read through the Brian/Adrian saga once but it was kind of painful to get through. I think I just need to read more Brian and Justin than want to see those two with anyone else.

Great list though!

[anyusa0030.livejournal.com]

growing up kinney i felt like someone was squeezing my heart out of my chest.divergence do i even have to say it.velediction i seriously can not read this fic in one go ,i need time for my eyes to heal after every charpter.remission i cried untill i thought i ran out of tears.

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

Great list! I forgot about Growing Up Kinney. I remember crying during that one too.

[sodoesrachael.livejournal.com]

Have you ever read mine? TONS of comments say people cried while reading this one in particular, and I cried while writing it. :)

Leaving The Hospital; I'm Going Home Part One (http://community.livejournal.com/fic_tastic69/356.html) | Part Two (http://community.livejournal.com/fic_tastic69/661.html)

And then there's this one:

Always and Never (http://community.livejournal.com/fic_tastic69/933.html)

Just a warning: I have an 'I kill people' tag for my fanfic for a reason. ;)

[amelialourdes.livejournal.com]

I haven't! I'll give it a try sometime, ha. But, not particularly interested in reading death!fic.