for the most sensitive among us the noise can be too much.

Tomorrow is the last day of my mini-vacation and all I want to do is take another week to just hang out at home. As if I didn't go through the majority of my life doing that. Guess that's why I'm having the work blues. This is my first year out of college and there's a lot to get used to after being within a very organized school system since I was three and a half years old (pre-school).

But, hopefully next year I can take a nice couple of weeks to just go somewhere and do something. I still don't know what it is because there are a lot of options. Part of me wants to go to New York and see the West Side Story revival. Big part of me is totally gung ho for Toronto's pride. And of course I'm reserving a side to see Randypants sometime. But, I don't really know. It all depends on the whole financial situation.

That's on everyone's minds these days. There are a lot of people who simply can't afford to fly home to spend the holidays with their families. It's unfortunate.

Wow, that was kind of a downer. Sorry. I guess I've been watching the news a lot.

In other news, I love this article and it's about Twilight so Twilight loves beware. This isn't the article for you. That hospital scene? I literally LOL'ED through it. It was the sputtering a la Kristen Stewart that got to me. For the most part I was able to contain my laughter until that moment.

I will be shamefully watching the Britney Spears special tomorrow because I am intrigued. I actually loved Blackout but I don't like what I've heard of Circus. I'm a Queer as Folk fan. I love dance music. This cannot be helped.

Oh! Speaking of music. I watched Topic Thunder today and thought that it was absolutely hilarious. Usually Ben Stiller movies are a hit and miss for me but this one was really great. Robert Downey pretty much trumps everyone in the movie. So, about the music? Hearing Name of the Game playing? Yeah, my fellow Qaf fans. We all know what I was thinking of. Mhmm.

Are you writing fiction or are you trying to win "the most awesome banner" contest? Fucking lame and it only takes away from your story that probably isn't going to be good anyway. *nod*

*ahem* Anyway.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING MY FELLOW AMERICANS!

Or should I say, happy day where everyone gets to eat with people you only see once or twice a year? Yeah.

So, my mother and I did have that feast that I spoke of last night. Turkey, ham, salad (with blue cheese dressing that I made that kind of turned out amazing), mashed potatoes, apple pie, lumpia, and pancit. Over all? Totally amazing. I just feel so fucking grateful that I was able to have all of this food today in a failing economy and in a time where things are tough for a lot of people. I'm feeling very thankful.

I called my dad in the morning and he had his own food prepared for everyone in the house. Feels so weird to spend the holidays away from immediate family but what are you going to do? That's just the way that things are.

So, my cousin came over around noon and we ate while watching the dog show that they broadcast after the Macy's parade.

Oh and since she's into Twilight. Um, yeah. Yeah, I went to see Twilight.

Uh, why ... um, yeah. I guess I'm still trying to recover from the experience.

So, hope everyone had a good day today or the best type of day that they could have had. I am enjoying the Friends episode with Brad Pitt. Friends Thanksgiving episodes = love.

Oh, Florida. I'm so proud of you guys. First you turn blue and now you're allowing the gays to adopt their babies. If those goddamn "family" groups are going to go after this it's time for another heavy letter writing campaign. Aren't they tired of their only stable children grow up in homes with a mother and father bullshit? You'd think that they would be. But, no. In conclusion, go Florida!

So, Thanksgiving is coming up and that means that Christmas is coming up and that means that I have my Christmas gift list ready to go for everyone. My favorite part of Christmas is really the wrapping. I already (mostly) know what I'm going to get everyone. I still need to ask my cousin's kids what they want for Christmas. Hopefully it's something simple like a game or something.

What's everyone's Thanksgiving plans? I'm curious. I guess I'll fill you guys in on my day when it rolls around to Thursday's blogging day.

Tomorrow I have a half day at work and I'm so excited about that. I do have to go grocery shopping. I have some things that I have to buy for Thursday's meal. Can you believe that I'm making these kind of preparations for a meal for two people? Yeah, that's right. It's going to be me and mom as usual. But, I'm happy about that and the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade on NBC.

Must be the season to read rizabeau's holiday story! Yes, the 'baby' gets annoying, it's a little OOC but hey you know what? It's got Justin's twins in it! And they are absolute love.

I really miss watching Army Wives and Desperate Housewives on Sunday nights.

Or in other words, I miss seeing Drew Fuller and Gale Harold on my television on Sunday nights.

That's why Michael C. Hall is there to fill the void.

( Hey, Dexter. )

Remember when everyone was so goddamn pissed off because that show got canceled and then years later it became an absolute cult classic and people say, "Wow. Biggest fucking mistake that ABC ever made." Wrong. I think that we're entering into a world where we're all going to say that about our short one season and short two season shows that are going to be prevalent in the future.

I say boycott bullshit "reality" television which guess what? It isn't reality. They tell people what to do on those shows. Those people are just puppets on strings. I work in television. I know because I see it and I hear it on a daily, daily basis.

Sorry, I didn't mean for this to be a television rant but I am still set off about this. Why does every single Bryan Fuller show have to get canceled? Heroes, you're next.

Going to finish that icon meme that I haven't completed yet. You can find the first one here.


5. Okay. I love Shelter. I love it. I have watched at least ten million gay films and there are pretty much three categories of gay cinema:

1) Artsy, pretty much emerging from the New Queer Cinema area.
2) Stereotypical gay comedy/"romance"/drama/etc.
3) Suffering victim who has to die at the end of the movie no matter what.

Don't get me wrong, I love a few gay films from all of those categories but Shelter breaks the mold on just about every single term. It's a completely feel good movie without touching into cheesy territory. The music is so appropriate and fitting for every single scene, the actors pull off their characters so well (even though I do have minor beef with Zach in some of his lines), and you know what? No one suffers completely, no one dies, and there's a happy fucking ending. How many gay movies can pull THAT off? Not a lot. This movie makes me so incredibly happy that you cannot believe.

So, I have this icon that pretty much represents the entire Zach/Shaun dynamic. Not only are they lovers but they're really close friends. I love that they build up the conversation in the film, treating one another like friends but their shift into a romance is completely, completely believable. So, that's why I have this Shelter icon. It pretty much says it all right there.


6. I love Randypants. I just do. I don't even think that I could explain it if I tried. I just think that he's one of the most poised, professional actors and I really admire someone who's really pursued what they want and are really unrelenting when it comes to getting what they want. That takes fucking balls and guts and it takes passion. I'm just drawn to that in general.

Icon's obviously from Mrs. Warren's Profession and I labeled it 'content' because doesn't he look happy there?

Um, cloverdilly is holding a gun to my head to do a voice/video meme thing and I really want to do it. I kid Ann. I kid cause I love. <3 So, other than that I am in for an awesome weekend. I'm just going to sit at home all weekend and relax. Best type of weekend ever. Well, except for the doctor's office (my eyes) and my aunt's bday brunch on Sunday.

Title: Scarf Sex
Author Name: amelialourdes
Rating: Uh, NC-17?
Warnings: BDSM
Notes: One night, during the incredible brainstorming session between me and url_girl that I officially dub "braintwining session" in which we come up with genius ideas, we tossed around the idea of Brian having sex with Justin while Justin wore that scarf of his that he always wore in Season Three. So, here it is. No beta. All mistakes are mine and I welcome anyone to let me know where I went wrong here.
Disclaimer: Qaf belongs to their respective owners.

( Scarf Sex. )

I was going to post some fic tonight that I've been writing but I got ridiculously distracted so maybe tomorrow night. I need to finish that icon meme I was doing too.

So, how about some Luke and Noah!

( Spoilers. )

Just when I think that my feelings for something and someone have dissolved a little, I end up seeing them and I turn into a little girl and my love for them is completely renewed. That's pretty much how I felt about Hanson last night.

Admittedly, I was tired. I go to work at 7 AM and they didn't play until 10:15ish. So, I was exhausted and I really didn't think that I was going to be into it. The minute I heard those opening notes to Something Going Round? Screaming, jumping, dancing, more screaming and my throat feels scratchy and dry.

I loved every single minute of it. My enthusiasm for them didn't waver once even though I was dying of thirst and the bar was ten feet behind me, I didn't want to move from where I was standing. I was waiting in anticipation, hungry for the next song and I never wanted it to end.

Where ... did this come from? I guess throughout I just felt like I was seeing old friends. That line in Mmmbop is pretty definitive of the way that my relationships have come and gone.

"You have so many relationships in this life. Only one or two will last."

Yeah. The person I heard that with for the first time and the person I thought was going to be in my life forever disappeared without a trace. I never thought that that was going to happen. But, it did. I thought about her last night and wondered where she is.

"So hold on to the ones who really care 'cause in the end they'll be the only ones there."

When I was twelve years old I didn't think that I'd still love this band as much as I did then. I think that at twenty three? I only love them more.

Back with an actual review, later.

Took me a while but I choose a really generic layout that I like. I just have to have something like this for now because I look at LiveJournal so often at work that I don't want certain people at work questioning me about my favorite couple evah. So, it's changed for now until I devote my time to making a new one with a pretty new header.

HAS EVERYONE BEEN WATCHING LUKE AND NOAH LATELY LIKE I HAVE? IT'S BEEN AWESOME. <3 I ALSO CAN'T WAIT UNTIL THE NEXT TIME THEY POP UP!

I will reveal no spoilers though because my braintwin (url_girl) would probably kill me. So, I remain hush hush about anything I've heard and everyone knows where to get those anyway. Like I said? Can't wait.

Meme time! Taken from likeknives <3

Reply to this post and I will pick six of your icons.
Make a post (including this info) and talk about the icons I chose.
Other people can then comment to you and make their own posts.
This will create a never ending cycle of icon glee.

Sorry guys, I know I'm lazy and probably won't reply and find icons for everyone so I can't promise it. But feel free to take and do the meme!



1. I absolutely love Hedwig and the Angry Inch. For some reason the first time I saw that film I felt like it just spoke to me. Y'know, I went to an all girls CATHOLIC college prep school and there really wasn't much diversity. So, seeing this movie kind of opened my eyes to a new world. Not the first gay film I've seen but the music was really great, the characters fantastic and the story of the film? This user gives this movie two thumbs way up.



2. This says it all doesn't it? STFU NOOB. Got this when I started getting tired of newbies. I know, I know. I was once a noob but I didn't ask obvious questions or you know what? If I didn't know something before asking it, I looked it up. If I wondered if something was allowed in a community, I looked at the rules first and read them. Isn't that what the rules are for? Sigh, just yeah. Having Alvin say this from the Chipmunk Movie? Awesome.



3. No secret that I'm a Queer as Folk fan. This scene is definitely in my top ten favorite Qaf scenes. Yeah, it's romantic and heartbreaking and I remember crying when I first saw it and some times after it. "I want you inside me" can be said a number of ridiculous ways but Randy always manages to pull of every line, every nuance of a scene and just make it real. That's what made the Brian/Justin couple so wonderful to watch and that's why I JUST WON'T QUIT THIS FANDOM. :X

And will post the other three sometime tomorrow. Probably Saturday. Hanson tomorrow and gotta head to bed now so, more to come!

I'm part of the Queer as Folk fandom. It's where I got my start on LiveJournal. It's become a home to me. It's become a hobby. It's become a big, big part of me that just because the show's gone, it doesn't mean that I've completely forgotten about it. It's still very much part of me and this journal.

That said, I've seen fandom people come and go and it's been admittedly, depressing. But once in a while? You find a light at the end of the tunnel. You see someone really talented and you just love all of their work and everything that they do. For me that's sanami276. I will pretty much follow everything that she does even if I have no interest in it because she does make great graphics. Not only that! But you just know that they're a great person by their posts because personality really does come through. So, Alex, I am wishing you a v. v. happy birthday today. Very glad to still have you here in the LJ world for me to stalk. :X :X :X

I know nothing about bandom but I know you like him!
(Also, v. v. intimidated making bday graphic for graphic maker, haha)

I lied. Heroes report and a Nuke play-by-play coming tomorrow probably since my ABC shows won't be on. :\ :\ :\ :\ :\